I recall exactly the moment it happened. The moment I knew that I needed to create something more with my life.
I was at a comedy show.
The wonderful comedian was talking about how, if people actually listened to the positive affirmations put up around the office, the people would run out the front door and never come back.
This struck a chord with me.
You see, for the past week I had been slipping pictures of dinosaurs into the little affirmation frames around the office, and they had yet to be noticed.
This meant two things:
1. No one was reading those affirmations and
2. My genius wit and creativity was going to waste
I woke up the next day slightly hungover. I was still drinking at the time. Still trying to pull myself through a 9-5 shift in an almost zombie like state. Still trying to cope with the state of my life and the world by not actually dealing with anything but rather moving forward in an almost auto-ma-tronic (is that even a word?) daze. But that morning I knew I needed to begin to move towards something different.
Things were not completely awful, but they were not great either.
It was the summer of 2020; my marriage had fallen apart, and we were in the middle of a worldwide pandemic the likes of which we had never seen before. I guess my higher self decided if I was going to go through THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL there was no time like the present!
Let's be honest, I had no clue what was happening to me…The Fool in the Tarot and I played my part well.
As luck would have it, I was asked to co-teach a yoga class at the office, and that inspired something within me. I had been practicing since 2015 and yoga was definitely the one practice that had really supported me, mentally and physically.
I decided I would take my yoga teacher training. 38 years old and I am doing what most 20-year-olds take a week off to go to Bali to experience. But hey, you are never too old to start and so I started.
I set about doing the thing. Learning online school, completing my assignments for my 200-hour yoga teacher training, my kundalini yoga teacher training, and at least 5 other certifications I felt were necessary to feel confident enough to continue doing the thing.
I began to daydream about what this yoga teacher life could look like. I had very big dreams.
I thought I was pretty clever too. I thought if anyone can be a day drinking yoga teacher it would definitely be me. Ah, was I wronger than wrong.
The lessons have been priceless.
You see there is something magical that happens to you when you decide to align with your big dreams, with you souls calling. When you want to create with your potential and when you begin to purge out everything that no longer aligns with that version of you.
It's basically hell, 10-10 do not recommend!
Unless of course you want to be living your best life. Then I highly encourage you to begin your journey. And I definitely recommend Intentions Yoga. Please check out their website and sign up to the mail list….oh and subscribe to their YouTube channel…
I digress… (but seriously subscribe, lol)
Where was I….
Oh yeah, ok. So, I finished my training and turned my basement into my yoga studio. It was awesome. I truly thought my work was done. I had built it!
I learned very quickly that, if you build it…. they don’t just come.
That statement is a total BS unless maybe you are playing baseball and building a field for Angels or something.
What this statement should really read is that:
If you build it AND market it perfectly to the exact person that needs what you are offering, AND once you have done your inner healing to get over your own hang-ups, AND once you have learned how to show up for people in full authenticity for the right reasons, perfectly aligned with your inner frequency, AND once you have determined exactly who you help and how you help them– then, and only then, THEY WILL COME. (lol)
And that is, I suppose, where I find myself today. I have done lots of inner healing. Healing things I never even knew needed to be healed, faced my hang-ups, tried to show up in authenticity and for the right reasons. Seeing again and again when and where my frequency was off. Fine tuning my message again and again.
5 years later I can humbly say I have only scratched the surface of what is possible and that I remain a grand work in progress and so excited for the road ahead. Because this time I am building the road with my life’s greatest INTENTIONS!
That saying about the road to hell being paved with good intentions - totally not true.
But that whole butterfly analogy thing where you turn into goo only to emerge a completely new and beautiful thing? That is absolutely true…and you have no clue before you turn into goo how truly beautiful it will all be when you emerge.
And so, it makes it all worth it.
I have one piece of advice for anyone going down the road to soulprenuership:
ONLY COUNT YOUR WINS!
….oh, and make sure to subscribe to my YouTube channel.
🤍Love & light and beautiful future butterflies to you!!!!
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